Remember the Wishy-Washy Part?

I think this might be one of the examples of me being "wishy-washy". From time-to-time I have knee-jerk reactions to something which has effected me. Going private with my blog was one of them. I am completely aware of the fact that you could be rolling your eyes right now wondering how "blonde" I can truly be and how you are wasting your time on my words. Well, continue reading if you want or click to another blog if you could care less about this little piece of the blogosphere.

The response to me making this blog private has overwhelmed me!! Apparently, my words, pictures and honesty have impacted quite a few people. Who knew? Not me, that's for sure. There is only a certain amount of email addresses that you can put into Blogger as those "invited" to read a blog. I was closing in quickly on that number with more to go. Bless you. That's what I want to say. Bless you for caring so much about me and my family.

I chose to post that I was going private on Tuesday because that morning a friend told me that everytime she turned around at our church she was hearing of my blog or about me and wasn't sure if it was all positive. Whether or not there was any validity to that, I don't know. I trust this person, but don't know how accurate her assumptions were. However, it got me thinking that if someone didn't like something I posted or misinterpreted the written word on here it could have negative ramifications towards PandaPop's name and reputation as a minister at our church. I did NOT want any kind of negative reflection put on our church or my husband over a silly blog. It made me angry to think that someone would turn my fun thing into an "un-fun" thing. I immediately went home and posted the news that I was going private. Little did I know the response I would get to that decision. One bloggy friend wrote to me in an email that though she understood why I was doing it, she felt sad for the "lurkers" who saw Jesus in a positive light or were encouraged through my blog and by my going private that line of ministry was shut down. Wow. Never thought of it that way.

I just heard a testimony from a pastor who asked the question, "Who are you going to greet into heaven?" This coming from the perspective that you are in heaven and standing at the gate welcoming people whom you personally directed toward Jesus and a saving relationship in Him. That really impacted me. Though I don't think that I am doing anything more through this blog than posting cute pics of PandaGirl, venting here and there, posting an occasional meme and just having fun online, the Lord is using it to minister to SOMEbody. Who am I to stop that flow?

Here comes the wishy-washy part: I am going to keep my blog just the way it...faults and all. If people want to read, then read. If they don't, then they don't have to. I know that so many of you took the time to email me so that you could be added to the list. I cannot express to you how much that moved me. Seriously. I get choked up thinking that other people even CARE! LOL! Know that I really do have a solid side to me and that I am not this crazy of a person to go back and forth all the time. After the "homeschooling/no homeschooling" posts, the "we're adopting/no we're not adopting" posts, the "I'm never eating chocolate again/I breathe chocolate" posts---this "private blog/nope I'm keeping it the way it is" post seems a bit cheap. Sorry for any inconvenience.

Know that I am here to stay...free and open to whomever chooses to read. Just keep saying nice things---it makes me feel better. ; )